Saturday, November 15, 2008

It's been 2 months since my last confession...

The truth is, for real, I couldn't deal with blogging. I'm serious. Mike and I were fighting none stop, I was in a bad place and I just couldn't talk about it. Nothing really happened, nothing major anyway, we just went through some bad times and it was mostly my fault. Maybe it was too big a change and I just overloaded. Trying to find yourself when there's someone right there with you all the time that needs you, it's not easy. Some times I just wanted to leave for a while, needing my head to myself. I'm not there yet by the way but I'm trying. We spent a week in Cyprus and that helped although we had some fights there too but nothing too bad. I'm so trying, I hope he sees that. Not easy waking up one day and realizing you've neglected yourself for 5 years because someone needed you... I always thought I knew what I wanted, turns out, not so much... Spent my whole life thinking I was a bass player, turns out I'm a drummer... private joke but you get it, right...?

7 comments:

Marcia said...

I'm glad you're back! I'm sorry you've had a rough go of it... I hope things continue to get better.

jenner said...

Sarah!!!!!!!!!!! I've been wondering about you, how you've been!!! I'm sorry to hear you've been having a rough go :( Hopefully things will start looking up soon. Try not to disappear again, eh? ;)

xoxoxo

jamie said...

I thought you'd fallen off the face of the Earth. Sorry things have been crappy :(

Brunhilda said...

Oh darling, I have been wondering about you too! I figured you'd come back when you were ready.

I'm sorry you've had a rough time. Fighting sucks. Do what you need to do. You'll continue to be in my thoughts.

melissa said...

That last few lines makes me think of my time between 29 and 31... perhaps your best days are just ahead of you Sarah.

Actually, I deep down believe that. ;)

Keep moving forward and do the best you can, for you and for Mike. That's all you can do.

Much love to you, lady.

Lizzle said...

You're entitled to a break! You're entitled to a lot of things... But when you tell us that you have been having heart problems, and then go silent for two months, you have to realize that we are entitled to our worries!

I hope that things improve for you!

Pookie Sixx said...

I think as women, we have a really hard time taking a moment to ourselves when we really REALLY need it. We feel guilty because we need a break and the only way it comes out is frustration and anger when we can't get it.

Oh lord...how I have been there. More times than I can count and I'm sure I will continue to rack up the tally.

Glad you are okay though. Hang in there. The rough times always pass.