"All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never, ever be boring."
Saturday, November 15, 2008
It's been 2 months since my last confession...
The truth is, for real, I couldn't deal with blogging. I'm serious. Mike and I were fighting none stop, I was in a bad place and I just couldn't talk about it. Nothing really happened, nothing major anyway, we just went through some bad times and it was mostly my fault. Maybe it was too big a change and I just overloaded. Trying to find yourself when there's someone right there with you all the time that needs you, it's not easy. Some times I just wanted to leave for a while, needing my head to myself. I'm not there yet by the way but I'm trying. We spent a week in Cyprus and that helped although we had some fights there too but nothing too bad. I'm so trying, I hope he sees that. Not easy waking up one day and realizing you've neglected yourself for 5 years because someone needed you... I always thought I knew what I wanted, turns out, not so much... Spent my whole life thinking I was a bass player, turns out I'm a drummer... private joke but you get it, right...?