Sorry I didn't update more..
Tuesday I called and yelled and told hime to come get his shit. Hoped he would do something to stop me but he didn't.
We talked last night, it started like a break up talk, he said he doesn't want to do this to me anymore, said he made me miserable and he couldn't live with that. I told hime not to make this about me, told him if he doesn' want to be with me anymore, just admit it. We talked more and I told him I didn't mean to break up with him on the phone tuesday, I really thought he was going to stop me. We decided to talk more today or tomorrow. I sent him a txt message before, asked if he was ever coming home, he said he's still deciding.
more later... too tired to write...